Weeks like this

During the day, I am lucky to live in a beautiful place. I have my bird and my beagles to keep me company. I choose what to eat , what to do, and have the peace of quiet. Then 3:00 p.m. Comes !!! The teenagers come home :-( The husband returns with his negative mood :-( I am brought from peace and the joy of solitude into negative  chaos. All 4 teens have each brought home their own version of problems, requests, and attitudes for me to enjoy. I am understanding that empty nest is an issue, but right now I am thinking it is looking pretty good. So at 3:00 pm everyday I do not have to brace myself for the onslaught of crap. Four years til freedom <3 :-)

It is a slow coming spring this year, but I can not help but get excited and look forward to the sun !! I know it is coming soon, and we have had a little glimpse here and there. The buds , daffodils, and the fact that I have a litter of Beagle puppies coming in a week all contribute to my optimism. I am getting a baby yellow sided conure, and am thinking how cute he/she will be. New life, New hope, New energy. I have lost 12 lbs. and am still going. I am happy, and blessed <3 I have great kids !!

Empty Nesting I wondered what this was about? With 7 kids I never thought I would be dealing with this. But now with number 5 graduating this June, and numbers 6 and 7 right behind her, I am now starting to feel the empty feeling. What is next for me after they are on their way........I am wondering who I am if not a mother any more. I have spent the better part of my life caring for others. My husband, kids, grandkids, Elderly parents, foster children, ect. and onward. I began at 9 as the eldest child of my family caring for my siblings while my parents worked. I had my first child at 17 years old. I can hardly remember not being a mother. So, to re-define myself now is really hard. I have time to myself and do not know what to do with it. I do not have millions to go places, so I just have limited options, and I do not even know what that is. A Hobby you say......... I have those, but they do not even fill me up. I believe that fostering might help, but I am not sure wh...